Last night Melissa and I were supposed to go to the Rink with Richie and Danny. The Rink was closed so we went to a girl named Dannielle's(sp?) house. Well I thought it would be us and a couple of people just chilling and watching t.v.

I was the youngest there(13). Every one else was 14-16, except for Melissa (17). Well they were all gangsta or prep with the exception of Chris M., me, and Richie. I was wearing my bondage pants and my purple shirt with the black cat on a skull on it.

When we got in the apartment I stood all by myself against the wall. Well Chris and Chris M. came up to me. Chris was like You look lonely, come join the party. Chris M. was really drunk and he was like You want some Beer?. Chris M. was 15. I was like No. Chris M. said Oh you don't drink. And then he started laughing. Chris took my hand and brought me over to the smaller couch and was like You stay here.

I was meeting a few people on the bigger couch. Melissa was already off with Carissa in Danielle's room talking. There was alchohol every where and Chris M. was stumbling all over with a beer in his hand.

Later in the night I started liking Chris M. You see Chris M. was kinda hot, but the other Chris was REALLY hot. It was so funny, because Chris M. kept hugging me and guessing my name after I told him a bunch of times. Chris M. and Chris worked there way through flirting and hooking up with different girls. Melissa was pissed because She wanted Chris M and he wasn't paying attention to her. Danielle was pissed because she wanted Chris and he also wasn't paying much attention to her.

Melissa was laying on Chris because she said she had a headache. Danielle was kinda upset then listened to what Melissa told her. Danielle was fine with that. I could tell Melissa was falling for him just as much as I was falling for Chris M.

When Chris M. hooked up with a girl named Amanda (a short 14 y/o blonde) Carissa and other people were screaming "Shez A hoe. We got a whore in here tonight." A ton of people piled into the bathroom with Amanda and were "talking."

As the night drew to an end Danielle was pissed and smoked almost a whole pack in an hour. Nobody except for Amanda got the guy they wanted, but Amanda still wasn't going out with Chris M.

Right before Melissa, Danny, Richie, and I left. We were talking to Chris and Chris M. We found out that when Carissa and Chris M. hooked up in the bathroom. Melissa was pissed, because she thought that happened when Carissa went into the bathroom to talk to Chris M. about Melissa. I gave both Chris' a hug. Finally we left. Melissa slept over my house and I had a really bad headache that stayed with me until the morning. By then Chris M. drunkness wore off at about 9-10ish.

In conclusion I got through the night without smoking or drinking alchohol, but did like Chris M. even though he was a dick.

I've been a lazy bum all weekend. Praticed clarinet... Tomorrow it's off to the mall for me with Jamie and Callie. Then on tuesday I'll be getting my cartilage pierced. My mom actually said, "Janine, I'm gonna have Laural do it, because we wouldn't want to risk doing your hair with regular dye." (Talking about dyeing my hair black...) One problem though. I would have to get rid of my danruff. Ew ::pokes hair:: Alright... Oh and I have something for the people who know what it is:


FL3adr A- C- D H+ M++ P++ R++ T++ W- Z? Sf- RLU a- cn++++ d? e- f h* iwf++ j+ p++ sf-

Furcode. (no, not sexual)

I got:
The CD Dance Of Dreams
A crystal ball with a silver moons and stars stand with crytally things inlaid in it.
A tranquil flowing water fountian.
An oriental calender.
An oriental picture thing.
A black skirt with silver buckles going down it.
A black shirt with a animeish faery on it.
A small blue corderoy backpack.
A broken cd burner.
$100
STOCKING STUFFERS!
<3 PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN: CURSE OF THE BLACK PEARL <3

I believe that was it. I got up at 6:30 on christmas. I went to KMart, Mandee, The Petstore, Just-A-Buck, Hallmark, and Samgoody. I bought a journal, fishnets, and those spikey plasticy earing things in blue, light green, and hot pink. I was gonna buy a corset, but decided not to.

I'm rping with rei right now. So fun

It is Christmas eve. Gonna a get a shit present tonight from the town's "Santa."

Do you remeber when you found out that santa was not real. Do you remember your chrismases before that? I do. I loved christmas, but not just for the gifts. I remeber trying to go to sleep but almost shaking with anticipation. Then I would wake up at like 5:30 and jump on my parents to wake them up. I would scream "Santa Came! Santa Came!" Then when my mom got up I attacked my mountain of presents. It was awesome.


When I found out he wasn't real (my friend told me), my mom denied it. I tried to pretend. I felt very grown up. The magic began to fade. Know I love christmas for the presents.

Today doesn't feel like Christmas Eve. Our traditions are fading. Not only that but it's raining! No even cold.

Well I'm glad I don't eat meat, specifically beef, because of tha mad cow thing.

Well it has been a while. Where do I start? I became a member of fictionpress.com. I have 2 stories and 2 poems. Alot of people commented on the poem "Silver Goddess."

Sometimes I hate myself. I crave good attention. When I draw or write something I kinda like I flaunt it. I want to be modest. I don't want to want attention.

I love the store Hot Topic! Did you know that I hate rap now and love rock/metal? For instance I used to hate Metallica. When my sister said "I want the Metallica CD!" I was like ew. ::sigh::

I wanna roleplay with Aifa, but she has her diamond Angel. Nobody is better than Angel. Oh well.

Maybe I'll love my trumpet. I know I'm not getting a flute or any other instrument for that fact so I give up. I'll love my trumpet T_T. I wanna play gutiar (sp?)!

I want to dye my hair so much. I want it to be black. I also want my cartilage pierced! ::tear:: My parents turned down both ideas.

I celebrated Yule with Aifa yesterday. ::grumble:: It sucked.

I can't for the present on ::braces herself:: Christmas. I want to write right now.

I've been so emo lately. Just listening to the beginning of Nothing Else Matters makes me wanna cry.

I saw Lord Of The Rings: Return Of The King...I didn't cry...

I have a friend, whom I don't like. ::grumble:: She likes me. ::gag:: I really dislike her. Her name is weird, but I don't hold it against her. She smells and it seems that she never heard of deoderiant(sp?).

I love this sound. ::sings::
So close no matter how far,
Couldn't pay much more from the heart,
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters,
Never opened myself this way,
life is our we live it our way,
All these words I don't just say,
and nothing else matters,
Trust I seek and I find in you,
every day for something new,
Open mind for a different view,
and Nothing else matters.

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

So close no matter how far,
Couldn't pay much more from the heart,
Forever trusting who we are.

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

I never opened my self this way,
life is our we live it our way,
All these words I don't just say,
and nothing else matters,
Trust I seek and I find in you,
every day for something new,
Open mind for a different view,
and Nothing else matters.

Never for what they say
Never cared for games and play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know

I know that is not all, but I love that song!

Song: Enter Sandman

Well today wasn't that bad. I remebered a comment somebody once gave me (quite recently actually) while I was singing to my music. They basically called me tone deaf which makes me conscience of singing around anybody, even myself, more than usual. Megan and I roleplayed. Yesterday it took me an hour to three hours to read a 247 page book. I started reading after I got it then read it off and on until 10:34 to be exact. I downloaded Windows Media Player 9. It is awesome! I reinstalled Kazaa the otherday. I already have like 10 songs downloaded 9 out of 10 are japanese.

Heh, I destroyed the pumkin pie -.-U (<--sweatdrop) I added a whole can of evaporated milk instead of 2/3 cups. ^_^ I suppose it will be, um, creamy?

Ok I hung out with Aifa the other day and slept over her house. She has a ghost... He is cool... I am a weak human and can sense him sometimes if I try hard. She has a neclace that is extremely powerfull. She told me I should start looking for one and start training... Well I search basically all that day if I saw jewlery. No avail. Now I am training to sense ghosts...

Anyway last night I was going through my jewelery box and refound a necklace my mom gave me awhile ago. She didn't really like wearing it, but thought that it was pretty. I held it in my hand and concentrated on it. Almost instantly it began humming. Then I knew, it holds my power. I think it is. Maybe I have more than one >=D. Yes.

Continuing... After that I was feeling my way through my house with my mind. I felt something next to me and the sleeping bodies of my mom and dad. I slowly opened my eyes and looked. I saw nothing. After about an hour I searched again it was still by me. I don't think it wan't to be felt, because when I got up the weirdest thing happened. My legs went limp and I couldn't walk without falling over. I fell asleep. I was changing this morning and I felt it again, on my bed. Now it is standing beside me. ANY ONE WANNA TELL ME WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?

Could it be after my necklace (which for me is now a braclet)?

Your soul is bound to the Burning Rose: The
Rapture.

"I go where my heart beckons me, and I go
with my head high. But sometimes, I get a need
until I bleed so my heart swims above my
head."

The Burning Rose is associated with passion,
intensity, and desire. It is governed by the
god Eros and its sign is The Flame, or Physical
Love.

As a Burning Rose, you can get lost in the moment
if you let yourself. You are a very physical
person, be it in relationships, work, or play.
You may be driven by your hormones sometimes,
but you know it's because you have to follow
your instinct.


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Ack! Tis horrible. I get really hot, and then I get really cold. I feel stiff and heavy. I have a pressure on my head and my nose is stuffed. I drew a picture though. I really like it and want it for a backround on rodentplushie, but I can't find a place to upload my picture. I remeber last year, I had an eating disorder. My mom thinks I have one this year too. ::sigh:: I like eating, but it's not like I want to gorge myself. I eat normally! Unless I'm sick...Like today. I have absolutely no clue if I'm gonna miss school again. I have a 100.2 fever. Wow, I must be delerious. I finished the book "Demon In My View."

Ok I think I need to do yesterday's homework.

Oh nevermind about that plushophile thing... I must have been on something. -_-

You are a Gnome!
A race of small, misshapen, dwarf-like creatures
that dwell in the earth. The name 'gnome' was
given to them by the medieval scholar
Paracelcus, in an attempt to describe the most
important of the earth spirits. Gnomes live
under the earth, where they guard treasures.
According to Paracelcus, they move as easily
through the earth as humans walk upon the
ground. They cannot stand the light of the sun,
for even one ray would turn them to stone. Some
sources claim they spend the hours during
daylight as a toad. They are in some way
related to goblins and dwarfs.


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